we say things we mean
then we take them back to sooth and mend
what we keep tearing apart
I've never met someone so like me
so hasty
so mean
drinking down my days
trying to fill my empty nights
SKYY is the limit
bitter lager
stale beer
wishing for a lemon
sucking up my tears
i had a friend once
i might've had more
if i hadn't closed the doors
a noose around my neck
fasten like my many ties
i keep wondering where i went
and why
bruised ego
damaged goods
i am a fool
mocking myself
mocking you
i haven't written in days
even weeks or months
it seems
unable to focus
i try and make sense of all of this
i am expected to please
and i am just really not that nice
so i guess im the bad guy
in all their eyes
but everyone needs the bad one
to point their fingers at
"that's her over there"
"blame her she's the one"
record proven
battle i have never won
but the war isn't over
no it's just begun
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm