Memories more than halfway down-throat
So strong, so drawing of breath.
Nurse embers in your chokes
Of charcoal and smoky subjects,
Grip like gorillas to the backs of necks.
Big sister’s beastly hands drive deeper.
In piss warm waters,
Stupid laughter
As the Jackdaw makes the first joke.
A screaming boy deflates
Below
As pains too indecent to translate
Pound out last calls
And begin calling cabs.
Chlorine in the saline
And the nose is crowded with monsters
Stretching horns and feelers into the brain,
Trying to reach out through the mouth
But the spout of fire tires in the depths,
Diffused by the unbreathable.
The grabbers that dunk might give
For a moment, long enough to stop scratching
At pistons and push back from the underworld.
Even at ten he knew these should never become words,
Only exposition to relay, wailing and tearful to Ma
To stop the animals from laughing
At the expense of the Jackdaw.
Throbs that would be forgotten,
Through pressing of the pen
Administer the ipecac.
The quacks, the artful eruptions and hacking
Up of crimson, gooey organs;
The catalyst for renewal,
Repetition,
Odium.
Diffusion of abstraction
Among the real.