You think that ive fucked up your life
because I told the truth
youd think you would know better
youve known me all our youth.
And im placed as the bad guy
because you do not see
i did this not to hurt you
and I did this not for me.
Because you say I fucked it up
once when I told a lie
that I only told to help you
so that you could really try.
With someone that I cared for
so you wouldnt feel bad
and you caught on and it destroyed
the friendship that we had.
And now weve tried it all anew
and its happened once again
only you told me to lie this time
although its to a friend.
And I almost lied and said nothing
I almost let it go
but then I thought if it were reversed
youd really want to know.
So I went up and told the truth
and yeah, it made him mad
but would you feel the way you do
if youd heard conversations that weve had.
Where he told me you annoyed him
and that you came along with me
and that he really didnt like you
the way you wanted it to be.
Or that you do nothing but just complain
when your lifes not all that tough
or how he said he wasnt interested
and that hed had enough.
That he thought that you were stupid
to let your husband go
theres so much thats been said to me
i dont want you to know.
Not because I want to hurt you
i just dont want to see you cry
and because you seemed so happy
when you looked into his eyes.
And I told him to tell you the truth
and not to lead you on
so your fucked up if you still think
im completely in the wrong.
So dont say I fucked up your life
I didnt have to try
i learned my lesson long ago
for you I will not lie.
Ive hurt for you
id kill for you
you know that much is true
but if you want to say goodbye
theres nothing I can do.
I wnat to makwe it work to nikki
but how when i don't trust a word you say rot hing you do
and I know that anything that goes on between us is told to others
and You'd be amazed at what I know that you just said in that poem, you think I don't talk with him, you think he doesn't tell me,
and I would really like to know what the two of you think I want from this
coz its clear to me that I'm on a page of my own
ash
Much Love
Ashley