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I am Pain.
You helped me with your gentle words
when I felt so alone
you were there
and I shunned you
not seeing.
You loved me when no one would stop
to smile
to say a word
you hugged me
my comfort.
You gave, I took
thirsty for the love
no one could give
afraid that you
like everyone would go.
I pushed away
I thought I had to let you go
and it HURT
to know the pain I caused you
to lock me in myself
to be so cruel.
I felt alone
I didn't want to pull you in
to my selfishness
my lonliness
to see.
That I don't know
how to love
how to feel
how to tell you
my only solice
how much I cared.
A was afraid
that you would see
and wouldn't love me
like everyone
before
everyone now.
You turned away
caught in your silence
me in mine
paste on fake smiles
with extra strength glue.
Look just under
within my eyes
and you will see
the pain, the tears
the lonliness
that never died.
You wanted the words of sympathy
I didn't want to hurt you
but to respect you,
not to cause pain
i stayed silent
and i cried for you
so many times.
I finally hurt you
not with words
but with my deed
not meant to hurt
but to love
with words
I thought were better
left unsaid.
Did i save you
from having to see me
from having to feel
from having to hurt
life is pain
love is pain
I am pain.
This is powerful and moving, I feel the pain as if it were my own, I hope things work out for you,
with love
Gabby xxx
Greetings Nicole, I recieved one of your poems in the daily random, curious I decided to check out your work. I am glad i did. Your work is beautiful, brooding, negitave, dark, dismal and depressing. I love it !
k i have read this before
Much Love
Ashley
ok nikki,
who have u hurt now?? who is this directed too? i knwo uve been off the past coupel of dayts maybe weeks or months, i am not the one to push, so i now ask, SPILL. i tell u practically everything, the stuff i dont tell i keep to myself. but now i think u need serious help. so talk to me. i cna only think of 2 people on who this is for, so care to narrow it down for me??
we need to talk about this, or run to bj like u alwyas do, some times i think u 2 were ment for eachother (weird huh)
Belinda