Silence stirs my memories
the pain I feel unmatched by time
living life and shedding tears
the broken heart most often mine.
Remembering my first real love
reliving all the endless pain
of knowing that I loved alone
that knowledge driving me insane.
Trying hard to keep unseen
the things that hurt me all the most
while happy friends all full of life
seem constantly to want to boast.
Life has never been to kind
for those who most need it to be
from all the memories I have made
I know that i'll never be free.
These realizations break my heart
but that's something that i'm used to
feel like i've fallen apart
wish i'd become somebody new.
Wonder how much more i'll take
will my future mirror my past
and if that's anything to indicate
I think it's coming way to fast.
I close my eyes and count to ten
push all my memories away
deep to where they can't be seen
to where my heart can't go astray.
I thought about writing a critique saying that that was great, but then I realized it'd be completely pointless because they're probably all going to be like that and I'll just be wasting my time. But here I am anyway.
i loved that one babe
it was good
and i know how it feels
ash
Much Love
Ashley