He thrashes around in his sleep now
Punching the wet pillow
Choking the cold blankets
Kicking the empty air
Yelling at only himself
Sometimes he shouts your name
With eyes shut
And ears deaf
However tears still flee
And his hands stick to his ears
Sometimes he holds his breath
He sleeps longer when he does
Fighting his urges to breathe
Waiting for something
Whether it be your arrival
Or his demise
Sometimes he clenches his wrist
Holding on tighter and tighter
Where the healed scars lay
Until they go back to normal
Until they go back to bloody
He remains unaware of the stinging pain
Until his dirty nails tap his vein
Sometimes he wakes
In the middle of the night
Yelling how his shoulder burns
Dying for it to stop
But to the touch its cold as ice
With a hint of dust
And it’s not both shoulders
Just the one you chose
To lie your sweaty hand upon
As you poisoned his dreams