I haven't spoken to you in days.
I want you to know
I am serious this time.
No sweet voice
will answer yours on the line
as you whisper
explanations,
condolences,
apologies.
Claiming openess
yet still hiding.
Waiting.
Wanting a body...
Wanting a heart...
Praying for both...
Settling for the former.
Bruising it,
scratching it,
so that no one shall
want it
except you.
Making me hate myself
as I look in the mirror.
Telling me
'this is what lovers do'.
Funny, then
that none before
dared injure
that which they worshipped.
I fought back
last time.
You kicked me out
and said it is over
as if you had made
that decision for me.
'It is over,'
you call me to repeat.
But I'm the one
who stays away
and never calls.
I'm the one
who isn't going back.
viva your independence