The best thing that I ever wrote
is probably the story I never told.
Not the story of this guy or that girl.
Or what he did to me
and what she never admitted.
Not the fact that I'm a victim.
Because we're all victims
of something...someone.
Maybe the best story is of this girl.
A girl who was born with empathy so strong
that her stuffed animals' pains could
tear her eyes.
A girl whose heart was so sweet
that the world should have loved her.
Because she loved them.
We know that isn't what happened though.
The world taught her pain and loss.
Everytime she should've heard, "I love you,"
or "You're beautiful,"
she heard "That doesn't make sense,"
"you're ugly,"
or silence...
Maybe the silence was the worst.
As she grew
she learned many things.
Mostly hard lessons.
You'd think this would have jaded her,
made her cold and hard.
But it didn't.
Or it did, but not how you'd think.
As a woman,
she feels more than anything and writes so very well.
She treasures love and believes it is the answer to everything.
But she has a place which is hard with in her.
It makes her ashamed of her feelings at times.
And tells her love never stays.
When they call her, "Beautiful",
the place never lets her fully except it.
This is the story I never told.
And I know that it looks like a "vicitim story".
But you see, it isn't quite done.
This girl, who turned into this woman,
has more than enough reason to call herself a victim.
And don't get me wrong, she has, plenty of times.
But she never wears the tag for long...
She doesn't call herself a vicitim
Instead she claims experience.
Hey...I love this poem. I wrote one a lot like it a while ago, but it didn't come out quite this good, so I never posted it :-) The last two lines are something I try to tell myself each time something goes wrong, and I tell my friends the same thing. It helps to think this way :-) I love all your writings. I've read quite a few, not all, but a lot, and I like them. You have n amazing talent, and I hope you never forget that :-)
~Always
Nikki
this is beautiful !!! thanx for writing it ! its perfect and i wouldnt change it at all ! *hugs*.. this is a very beautiful poem and that means u must be beautiful too ! if its about u ! or even if it isnt. thanks for writing this and making me feel.