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I had a very traumatic disturbing dream last night! I woke up wanting to cry and I kind of still do. I'm not going to go into too much detail because some of it was too gory so I wont explain those parts. Needless to say this dream was weird and unrealistic yet somehow realistic and very vivid. It may not sound like it to you as I type this down as traumatizing but it was for me. I am seriously freaked out. It started:

I was in this house with my friends and husband and behind the couch in the living room was a hallway. I was walking through the hallway when the whole hallway blew up!!!! And I managed to jump out of the way and for some reason the roof was off the house and I saw a HUGE ship hovering over us! It was so scary! It looked so real. It went away and we kind of stood in the living room in shock.

Then we all packed some stuff up and moved to the woods. The ship could follow us where ever we set up camp and we would have to run. My husband and everyone was telling me that the aliens wanted to murder me.

Then all of a sudden I was in my "dream apartment" ( I say dream aprt. because when I dream of our apartment its a little different than real life) and my stomach was sticking out a little and I found out I was pregnant! I was sooo excited I told everyone. I was so freakin happy! For this part of the dream I mostly went around telling people for a while.

Then my stomach got bigger and bigger real quick and I looked really pregnant. Everyone kept commenting on how big I was and how they too were excited for the baby.

Then, this is were it really got to me, I had to go to the bathroom and when I did I had a miscarriage. I started balling and crying and begging my mother for fertility medication so I can try to have another kid. I was so desperate to have another kid. I was so heartbroken. It was so real. That's when I woke up.

I just had to take a pregnancy test today to make sure but it didn't work so I have to wait to take another one. Maybe I am overreacting but that dream really scared me, not so much the alien part but the miscarriage part. I've always wanted a child. I want to be a mother so bad but I don't think my husband is ready to take on the role of a father...It is one of my WORST fears to have a miscarriage. I'm freaked out. I guess you would have had to been a woman and had to of dreamed it to understand. it's one of the worst dreams I have had in a while...I still feel like crying