Scorpionic

Corrosive thoughts

they pull me down

to where the angels fear to tread

My mental state

A darkened sky

encroached by clouds of searing red



I cannot see

the light in here

I’m seized by my own silent demons

I hate it here

yet cannot leave

A rush of spite casts out all reason



Scorpionic! (My mind)

Scorpionic! (My thoughts)

Scorpionic! (I feel so…)

Scorpionic! (This pain)

Scorpionic! (These tears)

Scorpionic!




A caustic gaze

across this plane

Why won’t these parasites stop feeding?

I clutch my head

To quell this pain

I can’t control this salt-tinged bleeding



They pirouette

upon my brow

These fucking whores of disenchantment

I hear them laugh

at all I love

All reason choked by this entrapment



Scorpionic! (My mind)

Scorpionic! (My thoughts)

Scorpionic! (This is so…)

Scorpionic! (My hate)

Scorpionic! (My rage)

Scorpionic!




Through eyes intense

I see the world

All vestiges of hope just die

They stab at me

Cerebral pangs

Yet I can’t bring myself to cry



I stare at them

Their eyes are blank

Dead walking husks enthused by malice

I lay submerged

in my own rage

Drunk on the spite from this grey chalice



Scorpionic! (My mind)

Scorpionic! (My thoughts)

Scorpionic! (This is so...)

Scorpionic! (My views)

Scorpionic! (My state)

Scorpionic!




My thoughts ascend

to touch the sky

to find myself, to say I love you

My thoughts descend

into the dregs

I feel less than me, feel less than true



Will I control

this fount of flames

manipulate it for my use?

Will I see through

This moat of shit

This cavalcade of self-abuse?



Scorpionic! (My mind)

Scorpionic! (My thoughts)

Scorpionic! (This is so…)

Scorpionic! (I suffer)

Scorpionic! (I wonder)

Scorpionic! (I am so…)

Scorpionic! (My mind)

Scorpionic! (My thoughts)

Scorpionic! (This is so…)

Scorpionic! (I see)

Scorpionic! (That’s me)

Scorpionic!




MRDA

(2003)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A lyrical rendition of my inner state in a particularly dark week roughly this time last year.......

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Jacquie Watts's picture

They say that the best poems are a result of personal influence and experiences. This poem really does reveal an extremely apparent pain. I'm generally not big on using profanity in poems (yeah, I know, I'm a goody-two-shoes...but there's worse crimes lol,) but I think in this poem, it really works and fits with the overtone. It's dark and ominous...And it's obvious it is very personal (even without the "author's comment."

There's a few gramatical errors, but other than that, the work kicks @$$!