that awful pit in your stomach growing
nothing seems to make it go away
the tears roll down your face but you want them to stay
for you don't know what to do if you're not occupied by the physical response your body produces
you try to tell yourself that everything is okay when you walk out into the world,
lying to yourself just to make it through the day
but you know as soon as you as your alone, see that picture hanging on your wall or that letter that he once wrote you
you break down
it was the right decision for being together was making you miserable but that misery was routine
you are now faced with a new monster where you are not adjusted, this new sadness is not your friend and you don't know how to act
small talk is awkward and no, you don't want to get coffee with this stranger
but maybe one day you'll come to terms, shake hands and make a truce.