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Bleed into the water
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Self Directed Forced to live a lie,
I carry on into the water.
I won't look back,
I won't worry about my future.
My only concern is to bring relief to this bruised body.
Even now, I can not let it go.
If my weakness shows, then they will kill me.
My bite a hole into my lip as I now struggle to hold my legs steady.
To be pushed this far is inhuman.
They don't care.
They feed of the suffering of others.
This is what they want.
One of the demon-eyed fools calls out to me,
He says, "What hope could there have been for such a fat lard as you?"
I howl as another hole opens in my back.
I can't hold it in.
Though I must.
The fool see's that I still move toward my destination.
He becomes angered and decides to attack again.
This time he pulls me into the black waters of the swamp and hold me there.
I struggle for air,
I struggle for help,
I struggle for life.
I give up.
He releases me and allows my limp body to float down between two trees.
My eyes open.
The tree to my Right appears to be full of life, and glows with health.
The tree to my Left appears to be dead, cold and rotting as the days pass.
As I continue to stare at this tree, I see the horrors that I have been through.
I see the pain that many have caused me.
I look away in fear.
My eyes glance upon the life-filled tree.
I see what I have never had,
I see what I have always wanted,
I see what I have worked hard to try and achieve.
I turn my face forward, staring at the night sky.
The glow from the moon lands directly on me.
Suddenly I feel overwelmed with strength and began to stand.
Though I find that there is no ground beneath my feet and so I fall into the dark, cold chills of my emotions, as I splash around trying to find land.
My skin is tearing as I fight to hold it in still,
My lungs collapse and I stiffen as my muscles lose needed oxygen.
I sink to the bottom and sit with my eyes open wide.
I slowly release what was pent up inside.
For many years, I have stayed in this one spot.
Still passing up the offer death has given me,
Still allowing one tear at a time to bleed in with the swamp,
Still waiting for the day, when I arise back to the top.
When that day comes, I will glow with joy.
For my pain has all gone, and mended with the waters of life.
