beckon me, this placement guile
bring me out of this denial
stack your children by the fives
as hidden maidens laugh & smile
and say that beauty is a liar
and it may be when it escapes
but as for now it hides and waits
until the sun can break away
from gloomy clouds of blue and gray
and when i pull apart the skin,
and i can slip my fingers in
i will find the holy answer
shrouded deep within the tissue
all the good things and the bad ones
some or most a passive action
but nonetheless lack satisfaction
drinking and still drinking,
not even caring what i'm thinking
getting fat and gluttonizing
and i'm becoming less suprising
wasting time to find providers
of this curse that i'm alive with
but i float on disguised excitement
expecting to find where the fun went
waking up with bad headaches
i got fucked up in a really bad way
i left my tab on karma's plate
and took a cab into a coma
somehow, some way, i woke toady
to find myself with a new brain
they tied it to my feet and said
poor boy, looks like your heart is dead
i lost the love somewhere in time
i even lost my will to fight
just fix me up and i'm alright
fill me up with that bright sunshine
i'm on my way out to california