Smiling through the pain,
I know thinking about me going through surgery scarey for all of us,
But it is getting really hard for me to take care of myself and that’s really hard for me to say,
Its true.
I have been smiling through the pain,
That’s what I have been doing for months now.
My heart and body are tired,
And I need to try and help myself.
So Mom and Dad & all my sweet family & friends,
Its ok to be scared,
I am sure I am more scared then you are,
Its my body and its really hard to live with the pain.
So what I need from you now is to be ok with this,
And just smile when you see me,
When you smile I smile.
What will, will happen,
Just know I love you all with all my heart.
Don’t be mad if it is my time to go to that place that I filled with roses in my mind,
I will be fine.
Misty Yanish
2009