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well.

that took an unexpected turn.

lets just skip the whole amazing dance party, and the drunken escapades that followed,

and skip to last night/this morning.

she invited me over.

i went over, we drank, i painted, we talked, alot.

on a very personal level. it was really nice

and then we kissed

and all of the endorphines rushed through my body

i haven't felt that high in so long.

the entire night, we kissed, held eachother, among other stuff.

she comforted me.

like, ive never been comforted before.

she was saying all of the right things.

like she truly knew me. and cared.

fuck.

i can't explain how surreal it was.

i didn't think she felt this way about me.

i guess it just continues to prove how much of a blockhead i am.

she said alot of things to me, that ment so much to me,

and i am 85% sure it was her, and not the beer.

i really really really hope it wasn't the beer.

because i know everthing that i said came from my heart.

not the beer.

fuck, i am just so fucking happy right now.

i really like her.

alot.

i need to not slip into old habits.

i need to not be paranoid.

just calm down.

breath.

in.

out.

take it slow.

realize that she is her own person.

she has her own agenda.

she has her own life.

this does not revolve around me.

not everything has to do with me.

let her be her.

don't rush her.

don't constantly text her.

wait for her.

be patient.

if it was ment to be, it will happen.

if not, then it won't.

i know you want it to.

but you need to calm down.

take it slow.

everything is going to be okay man.

seriously.

quit worrying.

stop.

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if it does work out:

appreciate it.

care for her.

let her be her.

always be open minded.

don't smother her.

always support her.

open up.

but not too much.

be yourself.

read a book.

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if it doesnt work out:

it's okay.

appreciate it.

care for her.

let her be her.

this isn't about you.

it wasn't ment to be.

don't over think it.

you will get by.

you've been through this many times before.

just give it time.

it might take awhile,

but you will get past this.

its going to be okay.