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am i stupid?
i feel stupid.
i can't stop thinking about you.
its not a crazy thought process,
more like an anxious one.
its obvious, where we stand.
i have butterflies, and you are not interested.
its not like i havent felt this before.
many times.
its been so long since i have felt the smallest inkling of love.
and you have given it to me.
even if you don't mean it.
it obviously means more to me, then it does to you.
but some
how
i'm
okay
with that?
god damn it.
i am stupid.
but now that i think about it...
you are definitely in the right.
you say we shouldn't move to quickly
which is normal, right?
i guess, just not for me.
which just might be my problem.
i want so much.
i crave it.
but how can i not pursue, what i feel in my heart?
how am i supposed to just sit on the sidelines,
and watch the game unfold.
what if i lose?
what if i waste time waiting,
when i could have tried harder.
nothing i can say will change your mind.
i can tell that about you.
i can write you a song
i can write you a poem
i can paint you a piece.
but i can never make you fall in love with me.
she is so beautiful.
even if she doesnt realize it.
so fucking smart,
im pretty sure she knows that.
im incredibly interested by her.
she makes me laugh.
she makes me think.
she makes me pay attention.
that is no easy feat.
i have so much to give,
i hope someone someday will realize.
all i need is one more chance.
