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"She sang gospel to me"
“She sang gospel to me”
As I was driving today, I heard a song on the radio that reminded me of myself.
A woman sang “ I won’t be here much longer”, I wanted to own those words, evidence I need help.
What can be so depressing to me of all people that I would be eager about dying?
Well, it’s the thought of being detached from family and friends without my resort to lying.
You see I am not to happy with the lack of appreciation I get from them, it seems my giving never ends.
Because of my considerate/protective heart I never express myself, always worried about who I will offend.
Contrary to what most of my loved ones think I’m not as strong as I appear.
Perhaps I’d feel supported if I was allowed to share my concerns as well when they load their problems on my ear.
Lack of finance, success, a companion, confidence, and hope can really begin to take it’s toll.
I worry that this is my destiny forever, and wonder what will become of my lonely soul.
Times are hard for me it appears there’s no way out!
It’s perfect timing that I hear this song, because I am ready to give up, no doubt.
My smile is a persuasive mask; people would be shocked to learn the thoughts that lie beneath.
But, resorting to drastic measures would be senseless because I have it easy compared to millions with far more troubles than me!
I love my family and friends much more than I love myself.
But, with me being their support system, where can I turn when I need help?
With those thoughts in mind I continued to listen to her sing.
“I’m gonna walk around heaven all day” were her words, and her hint to where I end my suffering.
Yes lord I acknowledge your power and although I don’t talk to you often.
I am glad you are here with me now, and the reason I’m not currently resting in a coffin!
By Bryant Mosley
