I fell limp in your arms
and retreated to the bedroom.
I curled up in bed and
wrapped myself in blankets.
Sometimes it's better
not to leave the house.
At least then no one
can hurt me or reject me.
I had enough of that
for one weekend.
Then I let the tears flow
and the despair envelop me.
I wanted the pain to end,
and I only saw one way out.
And the thoughts grew
darker and darker for hours.
How I would do it
that would hurt the least.
I had enough of that
for one weekend.