I opened a can of worms.
But really
they were venomous snakes.
And now their poison
courses through my veins.
So to stop the toxins,
I chug a whiskey straight.
Alcohol seeps into my blood.
It becomes part of me,
taking over the pain under my skin.
Now I can't control my body
like I can't control this situation.
I just breathe and hope
this feeling passes.
Because this is
the only way I know
to keep my heart from collapsing.
With my emotions numbed,
the tears settle back.
And although my vison is blurred,
somehow my mind is in focus.
All that felt like
the end of the world
a moment ago, falls away.
Maybe my feelings
are not the victim here,
but the villian.