My whole life is
this stage act,
pretending that I'm okay.
When deep inside,
I can't bear this life.
I'm just tolerating
my own existence,
waiting until I expire.
I'm counting the grains of sand,
patiently and earnestly.
I just wish I knew
how many were left.
I wish I knew if anything
would ever become
of my so-called life.
Or will it end
just as purposelessly
as it's been lived thus far.