10-18-04
3:55 am
If I die
I want to die.
In a body I know.
I want to be buried the way I see myself.
I ask myself why bother with everything I am going thru.
I may die before it all happens anyhow.
But what if I don't
What if I don't die until after the surgeries.
I just want my outside to match my insides.
So therefore even if it ends up being unfinished.
I have to try.
I have to try and make the outside match the inside.
Before I die.
But if you read this.
And I have died.
Please do what you can.
To make the outside.
Match my inside.