9-8-04
3:26 am
I just once.
Want to know.
What it is like.
To be comfortable.
In my own skin.
In my own head.
In my own body.
In my own thoughts.
I don’t fit here.
And I don’t fit there.
My head is like a merry-go-round.
That won’t let me off.
I think myself into a hole.
And then I cry.
I cry because I hate me.
I cry because I miss you.
I cry because I just want to know love.
I cry because I am alone.
I cry alone all the time.
With no one to hold me.
No one to care.
Just me, my thoughts, and a body I hate.
So I sit in an uncomfortable place.
And cry.