Who am I?

Who am I?
 
A confident soul, with a long bitter past that has torn me to pieces... A giver for good yet a taker for disappointments... I have never had expectations of another soul... Who had no soul.. Yet I was displeased. 
I was drained, defeated, used and betrayed.. And I am still standing.. The only thing that changed in that confident soul of mine; I was no longer confident! 
 
Who am I?
 
A smart woman, who is completely insane... I have crossed the paths of life yet made Foolish volitions... Choices suited the surrounded, yet demolished me. Collapsed in the throes of my agony! I was smarted for my foolishness. And I'm smart to admit I deserved it!
 
Who am I?
 
A vivacious diva, who cares more, yet  cares less! A growing Solicitude about others, yet  disregarded self! An attractive, pretty in the eyes of others; self neglected in the eyes of mine. A lifeless heart that is still beating. An obsolete brain that is still reasoning. Conflicted and uncertain..
 
Who am I?
 
Somebody that will never alter, someone who will never recast.. Someone who will keep making the same mistakes..
An anguished, regretful, sorrowed.. 
Brutish and ignorant who chose to survive with her growing afflictions.
 
Who am I?
 
I am my solitude, my loneliness and my despair. My longing, my happiness and my mistakes; I declare.. I am my own enemy, a foe a friend.. I am a fantasy, a dream an ecstasy and a nightmare... 
 
 It doesn't matter who I am.. Or who I used to be.. Or even who will I become.. What really matters is the path I'm taking... By the end of this road, would I still be standing? Or would I be forsaken, woeful as I'm standing there? 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

It truly describes me ...

word_man's picture

a touching write,and the

a touching write,and the question you ask could be for us all

life will get better for you,and i hope soon


ron parrish

Nediot's picture

you think?? :)

you think?? :)


a Damaged crazy soul