There is a pain
that can't be spoken
a mind numbing issue
at stake.
It isn't done out of malice,
just ignored.
Afterall it's one's opinions,
it's just something I don't agree with.
My heart has been broken over it
time and time again,
but noone really knows.
So how could they understand
my reasoning?
To hear the words,
and thoughts
trouble me.
But they don't mean anything by it,
it seems petty in a conversation.
But what do women really want?
It scares me.
It gives me less hope that
unconditional love exists,
or least the imperfect version of it.
Based on the conversations,
nothing matters more
than the outside appearance.
Sure, maybe something inside
matters to some,
but it can easily be outweighed
by what looks pleasing.
Not hvaing the ability to turn down
what looks pleasing, but on the inside
is not what women truly want.
If that is the case,
there is no really hope for me.
Since I wasn't blessed with this.
I apparently am not appealing in any
sort of way.
Nothing short of a miracle
will save me from being single.
But I wonder,
what will happen to others
who are like me?