conspiring....
all I felt from the ones I loved....
all I felt, nothing but the taste of what
life was to me, FORSAKAN
demons roaring in my head...
no where to turn...
no where to cry...
loosing all, I knew it....
convictions of these unforgivable sins bled through...
nothing to face but to battle these terrors to acend me asleep....
untill facing an intervention...
of which of these unforgivable sins of sadistic hate....
despising and distressing was the only way to cope of these familiar horrors of my past.....
never know that love for this world and myself was the only way to tranquility....
untill this time....
I fall asleep one night....
before me, I seek unto a kind, warm and loving maiden before me dressed in her glowing gown and strands of golden hair sifting through the breeze....
she frowns, looking down upon the unforgivable sins I have done...
tears fall...
the tears for the pain I have caused unto others...
I shed those to feel the tattering shame, decite and betrayl of those I imposed upon them....
as she smiles, feeling the redemption of her blessings as she sifts unto my soul....
the blessings....
to tear away my pity, sadistic anger, and hate....
I wake up the next morning....
feeling awake.....
redeemed.....
never to turn back to the one shackled unto these leeches of the unofrgivable sins....