Lori

i can't stop being angry at you so
forgiving you seems like i'm letting go
i can't accept you're never coming back
if i beg long enough..you'll back track?

i love you
how could you say it meant so little?
i was there
how could you not notice where we stand?
..me and mom
when we came through the door
your toes just feet off the floor
i know to some your cry ignored
but so you know how it feels, see lori
i'm crying to you

i write you in your journal all the time
lord knows, i have lots of free time
though i'd clear schedule for you any way
in all this vacant space i expect you any day

can't i?
how could you make me feel so little?
i was there
how could not notice where we stand?
..me and mom
as we stare up at you
our hearts just stick to the floor
even as we move we're just nailed there
so you know we know how it feels, see lori
i'm crying to you

do you see me?
i'm angry
though i hope you don't hurt no more
just want you to come home
just want you to come home

lori, your friends have sent you letters
i'll put them up on the walls in your room
though i bet you read them before they were sent
you know i leave your door open sometimes peering in

to catch you
wishing yourself back just sitting there
on the bed
looking at your room in wonderment
..me and mom do when we come to your door
when we come to the door
when we come to the door
lori, know how it feels, sweet lori
i love you
(we love you..)

the prom has come hun
you should come down
the stairs we'll take pic's
matt has carnations
we'll leave one up there
waiting by the door
robbie's still with me
we'll sit here right till 9
you're gonna be beautiful
already are
wear anything you like
i can't wait
lori, what a night we'll all have

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A few years ago i randomly came across a young girls journal. Apparently, very sad to say, she had killed herself. Her name was Lori, and as i read comments left for her, i was compelled more and more to follow those of her sister over time that had passed. Out of that, i wrote this, trying to capture those days though her sisters eyes. I don't know why i never got to post it anywhere before, but i just came across it in one of my old books today and thought it might be helpful to share it.

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