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Could've Been
I should have not let you go.
I should have ran out after you and told you no,
but I did not and just stood there.
Watch as you walk away after you crush our love and did not even care.
I was not lying when I said everything went cold.
Tears streaming down my face felt like tiny ice particles.
This love story is where I play the broken-hearted girl,
You came into my life and gave it glory before you shatter my world.
One moment I'm fill with hate,
Hurt with this anger and depression from this fate.
I'm living in a world with just you and me.
Where our tears seems like it bleed.
I have a locked heart, pushed you away, and you have the key.
I'm worse than any cruel dictator or war criminal because making an angel mortal was my deed.
I'm lying to myself when I said you're the one I no longer need.
It just that I don't want you here at time like these.
(This story is where the boy) Sitting in rehab and lashing out at everyone, not letting you for the third time see how worse I can be.
The next moment I want you here to talk your sweet talk,
Or take my hand and go for a walk.
Along the lake shore,
Is it too much to ask for it once more?
You could not tell me all of this will end up in ruin, before I fell in love?
Was it worth my heart torn apart knowing there will not be any more doves?
You are the only one who knew what I was thinking even though I sat there silently.
I always thought I was the person that could wait forever for love, but this pain will not let me wait patiently.
My mind fill with anger and depression all the while make me beg. (Grief)
Which make this coldest winter yet. (My belief)
I'm surrounded by people some with the exact same case,
Yet alone barely able too see your face.
I walk away that night,
My heart fill with fright.
I had to force myself not to turn around.
Got into my car before you could make a sound.
Took the plants out my cancer sticks,
Then my greens to make the mix.
Took a puff, gave you a quick glance, and knowing you're going to blame yourself thinking you did something wrong,
Broke your heart, couldn't tell you the truth, and drove away listening to a sad song.
I always told myself that you will come back.
My drug addiction is something I don't slack.
Given you up was hard but at least I gave my final goodbye.
I have been drinking quite a bit from my tea cup cause by your lies.
I thought everything was perfect.
Most people give up a life time, which I'm bless young, to learn what love is.
Even though we're not together you're still my greatest bliss.
My memory bring me to a night under the star, where you move your lips close to mine, and gave me my first kiss.
I ponder the reason you might have the same thoughts.
Care, open mind, and love is what you brought.
The best thing about love is the little things that don't matter much.
The sweater you knitted, I wear it everyday to remind me of your touch.
My eyes open, bringing me back to reality, seeing my homework pile up on the desk.
I should have ran back to you but I didn't and my biggest regret.
Should have ran back to hold you, tell you the truth instead of leading you on.
I am starting to let people make me believe you are not worth it, wasting my life having you as the person I fond.
Possibly the fact that you have completely given up on us.
My phone rang, made me relive that night we discuss.
Didn't pick up because of guilt knowing you loving me is your greatest flaw.
Why won't you answer my phone call?
A story where I'm the boy in deep trouble who gave you up to protect you from harm.
This love story is where I play the broken-hearted girl and need to be back in your arm.
This love story is where I'm being punish even though I did not commit a sin.
A story where every single minutes of the day I think about what could've been.
