In darkness I do sit
Cold, alone, and numb
My heart beating, beating, beating
But I don’t know where from
My clock has ticked down
I’ve run out of time
And killing off the innocent
Is not my only crime
I’ve robbed and been robbed
I’m a liar, a thief, and a cheat
And if you see me walking you
Should stay on your side of the street
But you won’t see me for what I am
I’m good at my disguise
Even though my inner soul
Screams, and sobs, and cries
She is watching, you should know
She’s counting down my days
Waiting for the day to come
When I’m caught up to my ways
She doesn’t even hide from me
She sees me and she’ll wave
And I just smile wanly
Because I know that I'm her slave
One day she’ll come and get me
Holding out her arms
Take this monster from you all
And deliver you from harm
Take me down to my home
Hell is where I lie
Believe that this is the truth
When you see me passing by
I’ve lost all of my purity
Pissed away all innocence
I’ve mastered at this cruelty
And stirred up all this ignorance
And if I die you’ll all be glad
Glad to see me gone
Even though I had no choice
I was just the Devil’s pawn
She will see me walking
This monster that He made
And she will bring me forth
And from this world I’ll fade
But maybe soon I’ll see the light
And because I’ve been betrayed
My past will be forgiven
And my debt will be repaid
© LJ Rodriguez 2006