Zakary *my baby brother*

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you.
I think and wonder to myself-
Would it be different?
Would it be different if I would have stayed?
Could you have stayed around a while longer with me in the picture?
Damn it! I wish I would’ve stayed with you. Stuck it out a while longer instead of running!
You need to know -
That you were the one and only reason I stayed for as long as I did!
And I would still be there today if my mom didn’t come and get me.
For the year and a half that were together for, I grew closer to you then anyone could have ever expected!
Probably because I raised you the whole time I was there besides when I was in school.
Besides buying the major necessities like bills, etc.
I always took you out.
We danced together, and sang with each other. Even tho u were about 3 at the time you memorized songs the first time you were to hear it.
I hope you don’t think I abandoned you!
I was only 14! Last year I had a car and I so badly wanted to see you, and lil’ Natasha.
I was ready for the trip
But then I found out you two were in a foster home!!
And dad told me they wanted to adopt you guys.
BUT THEY CAN’T
NO! That was my dream!
When I was able to get my own place, and money, I was gonna be your hero, and take you far, far away with me!
I should have this right.
For God sakes I’m your biological sister.
I was there for you when I was there!
You hung out with me and my friends, you were our little buddy.
3 years old and you had so much knowledge you had no right to experience!
Every time I hear our song “Sometimes” by Britney Spears.
I just wanna break down and cry! That was our song!!
It meant so much to the both of us!
You sang it so perfectly
Like my little Angel!
Cause that's what you were.
And now that 4 years have passed I'm gonna get you back!
I saved you once before and God as my witness I swear I’ll do it Again but this time with our baby sister!
Love always and forever
Ame

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I had to put into words what i feel about my lil' brother cause i can't stop thinking about him. I miss him and i feel that i had failed him. And there's way i'll be able to see him again.. he's been adopted out along with our sister who i never met..
Written October 26th, 2005

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