Not Anymore

I don't mean to you, what I used to.
We used to talk and you would listen.
And I know you are busy with your son,
Together as you haven't been able to be,
With his father in the way.

But I don't mean to you,
what I used to,
I guess I should have seen this coming,
But I didn't want to.
I wanted to believe.

That in a way this could all work out,
That I could trust in you without a doubt,
And I can.
But it is all in the past now.

I really hope your happy,
Because you never smile enough,
I hope you float on cloud nine and never hit the ground.
And that you find your happiness right where it belongs.
And your husband and kids live so long a life.

And that some part of you never foregets me,
As we slowly fade away from each other,
I hope you never give up writing,
And never don't stop to read it.
But it isn't the same.

You don't feel for me as you used to,
Now I am just another Dove to you,
Another girl you found, raised, and released.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

To a wonderful woman, who became my friend and for a year and a half I considered her my best friend. I still do, but I am not sure if she has time for me anymore. She isn't being mean, her family needs her and she is finally becoming happy and realizing she deserves to be happy. AndI want the best. Despite wanting her all to myself some days. :3

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Beavis's picture

;-)

"Now I am just another Dove to you,

Another girl you found, raised, and released."

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She was my Writers

She was my Writers Mentor/Best Friend/Non-related Sister and still my favorite author ever, so those lines were kind of to convey that. I think they did. Captured the moment like most phrases could never, even if I had a million.

Thank you,
LovingLovelace


If your mirror doesn't find you one of the most beautiful people it has ever seen, punch it and find a better mirror.

Beavis's picture

;-)

I think you captured it perfectly! ;-)

nightlight1220's picture

That is a very nice tribute

That is a very nice tribute to the friendship you share. Friendships change, memories are what last. I really enjoyed this a lot. May you find more feathered friends in the sanctuary of friendship!

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

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Thank you very much, sorry

Thank you very much, sorry for not replying sooner. I was..... busy realizing things and didn't feel I could put enough thank into my thank yous at the time.

Sorry if it doesn't make sense.

Thank you,
LovingLovelace


If your mirror doesn't find you one of the most beautiful people it has ever seen, punch it and find a better mirror.

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No problem at all. I know how

No problem at all. I know how it is. I went on vacation last week and my whole life got discombobulated!!! (But I had a wonderful relaxing time, so I don't care!! ;-) ). Love your writes.


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "