I don’t understand how I developed this
kind of sensation,
Absorbing my weaknesses
and doing mistakes continually.
Considering the unacceptable
eminence of my life,
And adopt all the unfairness acts
for confidentiality phrase, frustratingly.
All these years my life
has been full of mystery.
With usual vanity
behind my sweetness identity.
Blinded by my own
wicked inspirational dreams.
Constantly mystified as well
as gloomily engaged.
I give up the rest of
my unpleasant secrecy,
I’m loosing my hope
and worn out from folly.
I stumble and fall
and couldn’t prevail over the reality.
Wish I could defeat
all of my faintness fantasy.
What are those ecstasies for
but barely for my own liberty.
Releasing my wings with
obstacles bound to my journey.
When will I learn to carry out
my wickedness with authority.
Oh, how I wish to become numb
in a deepest sleep, everlastingly.