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Schizophrenia
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Mental Illnesses Aimlessly she stares
at the patterns on her wall.
"It's not real" she says
as the wall
closed in on her.
"It can't be real" she yells
as she hears
footsteps around her.
"Are you home?"
She textes her sister,
but she replies no.
"Why can I hear you?"
She screams.
The voices,
they sound exactly
like the people I know,
but they can't be real.
My grandma would never say,
"Kill yourself!"
I DON'T WANT TO KILL MYSELF!
"Yes you do."
My mother tells do.
I DON'T want to.
"No one loves you!"
My bestfriend tells me.
I don't.
"It would be so easy."
My boyfriend says.
I though I could be happy.
You will never be happy.
You don't deserve happiness.
I fight off these thoughts,
but they aren't thoughts anymore.
They are voices in my head.
They are people
who aren't actually there.
They are the shadows
that lurk around me.
They are the walls
I feel closing in.
They are my fears
and my dreams.
They are always here
but they aren't real.
It's not real.
It can't be real.
Why is it real?
I believe those voices are
I believe those voices are people's lost spirits that are very upset for whatever their reason,
and they are channeling through you because you have a spiritual gift of hearing them more than others. Try going for Reiki Energy healing, as it can balance your energies in ways that will feel like miracles. :)