i've tried to reach the stars
instead i grabbed a handful of pain
every day i remember her
and every day i miss her
one life no longer here and i've been lost ever since
she was my guide, my conscience
when i lost her i lost me
somehow and i don't know how
i didn't realize how critical she was
they give birth to you
they hold you and mold you
and you work so hard to separate from them
but you always get pulled back in
and when she died i was racked with pain
even today when her time seems like another life
i cry all over again wondering so much wondering
if i could just ask her the simple questions
should i buy the green blouse or the pink one
should i make spaghetti or meatloaf tonight
yeah, it's hard to believe my baby is old enough to drive
but i'm talking in my head to the hole in my heart
where she is and isn't anymore
i don't know up from down
i get so confused
i'm not her but everyone says i am just like her
and the memories are chasing me
i can't escape her while i fight to keep her alive
it's a cirlce of grief i can't break
a bond that followed her ashes into the wind
while dragging me in the ocean below them
i miss her
it's 3 words and it hurts me worse then any pain i've tasted
i miss her
i love her
and i wish she were here