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I am lost... I really need help with this life. I am struggling through, and realizing I have feelings. My feelings are mostly fear. I have realized what fear really is. I don't know about my life anymore. Where I am is not where I want to be, and where I am going I'm not sure will be any better. I got so caught up in the post-decidings, that I didn't think the actions through. Just how scary it is to know that once you go, you can never turn back. I know I am a afraid of what I will become, but I am afraid of who I am now. Will I amount to anything? Will I die alone, and without anyone knowing? I want to die, but I want it to be noted in history. I am doubting that will ever happen. I am doubting my life. I have so many fuck ups, and so many bad omens, I have nothing but fear. Is there a cure? Is there someway out of repercussions? Can I make a living once I hurt my personality. Can I forever live, and be known on the lips of every man, woman and child to come after, and before me. We really must get together and hash this shit out. Only the wicked, and the evil should feel no pain. I feel pain, does that mean I am good? I feel numb to my senses, and I feel fear. My muscles are sore, and my bones are aching...what is a "Man" to do, when he realizes he has not yet come into his own? Am I ready, am I set for what is ahead...then maybe I should just go...