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there are two types of willpower.
there is the willpower to do what you want,
and the willpower to deny yourself.
i learned something profound today
in the face of my own self defeat.
my failures have shown me that i am much more

than the vices that chain me to dark misery
i speak specifically of sex. my bittersweet kryptonite.
my virtue is chaste if my body relents.
but temptation could swallow me whole.
if i ever want to truly know love i must quit lusting.
and not just do it for myself but for everyone else,
because every time i have an orgasm a part of me dies
that can feel bad for wasting my soul on 5 seconds of bliss,
that can look in the eyes of a fellow human
and not objectify
i recognize my fear of death and burning in hell
the root of my selfish desire to be selfless,
yet unable to get over myself,
paradoxically searching for my own source of love
i once overcame it but sinned and then i fell
so i'll try once again to stay out of the hole
it's just so hard cause there's a million of them
just waiting for me to forget to say no