Verse 1
Anger
Madness
Insanity
That is killing me
Racing endlessly
Through out
My weary head
Want to sleep
But the nightmares
Keep getting me
The memories
Haunting me
Screaming
Wish they would
Just let me sleep
All in my head they say
No shit I say
Any idea how to shut
My mind up
It would really help
Chorus
After being
Neglected
And abused
Not to mention used
You still wonder
Why I have
Trust issues
What the fuck
Is wrong with you
Verse 2
Better than this
I know I am
Yet a building
Person or song
And I am 12 again
Hiding in fear
From the bullies
Everywhere
Wondering why
The adults
Never seemed to care
They saw it all
I know they did
But no one came running
If for help
I ever did call
Decided I wasn't worth it
Better let me fall
And you wonder why
I can't sleep at night
Hell even then
I knew that shit
Just wasn't right
Chorus
Verse 3
Stuck once again
This nightmare
Just never ends
Greatful to have
A place to live
I try to make
The best of it
I just wish
Me being back here
My subconcious
Could actually handle it
Still it could be worse
Would die on the street
In a fucking heart beat
I wish every day
That wasn't a choice
I ever had to make
But hey
Today is a new day
My time to shine
Now if only
I could just quiet
The chaos in my mind
Chorus
Trust Issues
Good to have - world is full of abusers. I have a checklist: frown no, curses no, handsy no, overly complimentary no, grins no asks for cash help no, lives with parents no, no car no, no job of merit no. Cuts out the losers.
Good poem enlightening.
~A~