Thought you loved me.........

Thought you loved me

when I held you close

to my chest on a warm

night,the white moon

was hangin' in the sky

above us,the mood set

right,and our lips met,

smooth and soft and

gentle and mesmerizing.



But, you only meant to

distract my heart,and

tilt me over the edge

with your decieving

thoughts. My heart had

skipped so many dancing

beats,and fluttered

unmercifilly....



Thought you wanted me....

the way you looked at me,

up and down,slyly checking

me out at every turn,

joking around with me,

grabbing my hand, leaning

close to me,whispering

"secrets" day and night

to me.You had me, when

you gazed into my eyes

and didn't say a word,

with your meaningful

deep penetrating

intense looks.....



But, you only meant to

make me yearn, melt my

heart rapidly,completely

only to let my heart fall

and shatter into mosaic-

like pieces scattering

everywhere like glass

on asphalt.



Thought you had to have me....

the way that you stared,the

way you talked, the way you held

me, everywhere we went.You made

me feel that I was "the only

one" that could love you,and

desire you,and make you so

satisfied.You used to tell

me, that I "was the best"

that you had ever known,

wanted, and had in your life.



But, you only meant to break

my heart,to devour me,then spit

me out.You gave an exceptional

performance;bravo,encore,for

you left me ravaged,hungering

and lingering,and crying and

waiting......



Thought you loved me....

you were the one I said"I love

you" to.The one I passionately

waited for as you trudged off

to another place.My heart was

with you,every step and every

step,you were farther away,so

far I could not feel you any

more.I could not touch you,

or lie with you,or kiss you

close.....



Thought you loved me....

but,



it wasn't love......

Author's Notes/Comments: 

by lilwinky
Written Saturday August 13th,2005

I wrote this because I was trying to write about a past love, that was actually my first love...I have written other poems about this person before...but, this poem is much more honest, and just tells the way that I really think,was more of "the truth" in so many ways!

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