I wish I could tell you
I wish I could tell you it gets easier, but it don't,
Or time heals the pain, but it won't.
I wish I could tell you, you move on,
But you don't, you just come to accept they are gone.
I wish I could tell you that the pain goes away,
But I still live with mine every day.
But I can tell you that after almost 12 years,
I still wish he was here.
I wish I could tell you that some day you will no longer question why,
But I can't, so I won't lie.
I wish I could tell you that some day you will no longer shed tears.
But I still cry after almost 12 years.
But I can tell you I still miss him every day,
And it is a heartache that never goes away.
I wish I could tell you it don't hurt no more,
But will hurt today, and tomorrow, just like all the days before.
I wish I could tell you I don't blame myself but that's not true,
I still question if there was something I did or didn't do.
I can tell you I dread his birthday every year,
It is so hard to be happy when I know he is no longer here.
I wish I could tell you that people understand my pain,
But they can't unless they have been through the same thing.
But I can tell you a child dying is a pain no mother should have to go through,
But sadly far to many do,
And for every mother who knows my pain, My heart goes out to you.
Tears are liquid love, so it is ok to cry,
You are not alone if you question why.
I wish I could tell you ,You are stronger than you ever thought you could be,
Because it takes a strong mother to be a mother of an angel baby.
© Wanda Faith Danielle Eitzmann
