I cut myself,
To quiet the pain,
In my heart,
From within.
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I cut myself,
To watch me bleed,
To know that Im alive,
So I know I can survive.
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I cut myself,
To taste my blood,
To hold my life,
On the tip of my tongue.
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Im in control of all of what happens to me.
All of my pain,
All that I gain.
--
These scars show,
What words cannot say..
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I control my life,
On the edge of a blade.
I really like your poem and I think it captures the feelings of SI so well. I understand where you're coming from too because I used to SI. I have two poems about such things, which are titled "No More" and "Scars".