I used to be content with what I had.
Then our life turned out to be so bad.
Not sure exactly what I did.
I guess it was your love that I mistakenly bid.
Something has changed. This is all new.
I never thought I could move on from me and you.
It's still so unclear. Just how I feel.
Sometimes I ask if this could be real.
I had you and that's all that mattered.
But now our connection is simply just tattered.
I try and fill this ugly void.
With several different random boys.
I feel so guilty. Why do I need more?
They judge and call me a whore.
But it's not the sex that I desire.
It is your love. That I wish to acquire.
It may seem confusing. They keep telling me.
I'm still not sure how this could be.
They ask me why I stay when you treated me so bad.
But they just don't understand what exactly we had.