as i said to the never the night would no more
bring me light, nor my dawn as stars guided me on
lights aplenty and bright my eyes dazzled in awe
made humble easy to tell as devils and angels
bidded and battled over my ears
through my head they rattled
i've tested wrongs and seen the truth
i've felt honesty and i know the knife
i've committed these sins more than one time
i've indulged in love and i've bathed in hate
i've known the warmth with a woman sedate
my guilt is without forced from within
my demons of the nether reside in my den
why oh why did i lie let myself die inside
why did i breed deception under my hide
i contradicted with love and abandoned my hope
that there was just more than the heavens above
when it all came true complications of relations
politics clouded the view like enforcing a declaration
i wanted you then i still need you now
but in my soul i'm a free bird
and i could never tie you down
i contradicted in love and abandoned my hope
my mind is askew from the normal, see
as manipulation & perjury have blurred my view
monkey see monkey do i tried and won a few
but i've known defeat and victory bitter sweet
and that's enough for me to end the pain
i've lopped off limbs as amputations, separations
all lies to speed the mend
i hate routines and starting over
so i contradicted in love and abandoned my hope
in the hope i won't be lost...
self esteeming is the same when some one wishes to be a perfect man... as every body in the world dreams for,,,, its positive behavior.. and here in this poem, what you tried to expres is really true and you are right.... to make yourself as a dawn... or the sybol of dawn... yeah you can if struggle much..and keep worries behind... love your work.. friend