My Dawning

as i said to the never the night would no more

bring me light, nor my dawn as stars guided me on

lights aplenty and bright my eyes dazzled in awe

made humble easy to tell as devils and angels

bidded and battled over my ears

through my head they rattled

i've tested wrongs and seen the truth

i've felt honesty and i know the knife

i've committed these sins more than one time

i've indulged in love and i've bathed in hate

i've known the warmth with a woman sedate

my guilt is without forced from within

my demons of the nether reside in my den

why oh why did i lie let myself die inside

why did i breed deception under my hide

i contradicted with love and abandoned my hope

that there was just more than the heavens above



when it all came true complications of relations

politics clouded the view like enforcing a declaration

i wanted you then i still need you now

but in my soul i'm a free bird

and i could never tie you down

i contradicted in love and abandoned my hope



my mind is askew from the normal, see

as manipulation & perjury have blurred my view

monkey see monkey do i tried and won a few

but i've known defeat and victory bitter sweet

and that's enough for me to end the pain

i've lopped off limbs as amputations, separations

all lies to speed the mend

i hate routines and starting over

so i contradicted in love and abandoned my hope

in the hope i won't be lost...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

when everything works against you.. work with it

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Afzal Shauq's picture

self esteeming is the same when some one wishes to be a perfect man... as every body in the world dreams for,,,, its positive behavior.. and here in this poem, what you tried to expres is really true and you are right.... to make yourself as a dawn... or the sybol of dawn... yeah you can if struggle much..and keep worries behind... love your work.. friend