You were left alone with the maniacs
They de-fleshed you like that shit they
dropped on Japan back in World War II
You lock yourself behind a door and rip
out your eyes
You stuff fairy god mother stories in your ears
You were not prepared to be so alone
The gutters are crying, you know because you
have depressed yourself by the window sill
There are things around you, very small specks of an aspect
you can't seem to grasp
You will die this way, your mother even knows... you are not a fighter.
You are having problems.
You won't speak.
You are consumed
like a rotten wall
filled with cockroaches
devouring it all
you blink
and you blink
and you blink
You make your brother get out of bed
He has lost 8 pounds
He won't eat
His cancer is turning red like
a shredded limb
and he is sad, too
This anger fills the kitchen
it fills and the windows break and
the people inside are sticking thorns into their hamburgers
swallowing like it was nothing.
Teeth are breaking
and you swallow them too
until your digestive tract is full of shit and thorns and angry teeth
and you vomit something comparable to a lung into an
empty cup
You set it down
You pick it up
You shift uneasily at the sight of your insides,
there
is
nothing
pretty
about
it
i love you.
is that weird to say? i don't care, you are amazing.