There is a hole in my window
Probably created by one of my childhood
angry spouts
where I punched in the window pane
and used its tiny pieces to seperate pride and anxiety
I sat in the chair
Hands sniffing me out
He says honey you're fine
and this is some thing you're doing
Sorry I havent shaved my legs
Sorry I reeked of sweat and depression
Count these hours
Light the matches
I saw the body on the road
I could not remove my eyes from the blood
the bone
But it was not a body, only a mailbox
and a bumper
I wanted to see death through figments
of imagination
I have been running from the itch
of its claw
The sunlight is distinct in here
And I cannot sleep
5:05 PM on a Thursday
I cannot put the thoughts down
I cannot stop chewing gum
I am a donor
Lover, where are your eyes now
She wants me
She wants me hard
I could tell by the force of her drunken
tongue in the back of my throat
Her nails on the back of my neck
there were not supposed to be there
I didn't ask it, but Ive kept your little secret
I'm home alone tonight
and I've left my baggage at your threshhold
I fight the good fight while he's popping pills
instead of buying diapers
And he's turning around
he's turning around for the infinite time
Crack babies
and trailor trash
Cracked trailors
and baby trash
You can't rid yourself of the filth that you've
allowed to settle in
Where did the hope go?
Maybe I just take it as it is
The curtains block the way
but Im really not interested
The neighbor beat his wife and
she ran back with a smile
Sip the overdosage of self born pity
Doesnt life taste good
for a moshpit brain
Makes us want to slip out and
follow the theories of sciece
I am air
rushing through a hole
of a broken window pane