I knew something huge was going to happen,
like a lingering ripple made by falling leaves
There is something so desolate about a pond
There is no life on the top
But the belly is fertile and as scary as a
fat circus clown
I was born a grimacing hooligan.
And in the backseats I made my mark on every
window
Every cloth seat was torn, in the same matter in
which I was torn
I pissed in corners like all the free men
There was that day at Bethel Hill
A friend and I found that missing kids sneaker in a
barrell much taller then us
We were digging for old bread to feed that
grungy dog we hated
And there it was, all bloodied and mangled,
like a freshly painted piece of roadkill
We were small then
Small arms
Small fists
Small intentions
Our childhood decompressed into a flatness which
I never spoke of until now:
Our brother was dead
We were adults now. We knew something huge.
The skin on our bodies peeled off and grew splinters
And we spent the rest of the afternoon looking
at other people's genitals in books
And that's just how it was, growing up in
the bottoms of Virginia
Keep your mouth shut, little one, and take our right
of passage to the grave
You'll notice how things start to slip out, in
the writhing grasp of age
Mouths began to dilate as the audience gathers
Itching to know what you have done
What you have not done
Or the things you won't divuldge that you've done
Listen, you narrow bastards, listen
The sound is tiresome and
it curves to the ears the way lava would
curve to the rocks
And you creatures, you morons, are picking the
meat off each pause in my spine
Big juicy worms,
dangling pink and plump
And I realize now,
hell found a hole. so I plug my finger into it each
time I feel a draft
It reminds me of that dream,
I still shiver at
The unicorn under the deep water,
just waiting
just waiting for me
And for awhile there, I just
sexed my way into womanhood
What was I supposed to do? I had never loved before
late night tiptoe
finding my clothes
leaving lover behind the door
swerving on
snapping telephone wires in half
and that was just the turn, in my century
Oh, when the Winter unties the Spring's hands...
I could go on forever.
So,
the branches decapitated under my feet on those
drenching walks
I could tell the type of the tree by the cloak of its bark
My grandfather stuffed me with peanuts and a painful
story of his pet chicken
I told him I was incapable of feeling sorry for anyone
He stopped talking.
I have limp legs.
I am a true Go-Getter.
I am, every pond.
Honesty in Hooligan
I enjoyed the open admission quality of your writing. In your face images that simply work ~Star~
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