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Stay, Go
I watch you waste away
once sometimes
twice a week
I watch your miserably slow decay
You tell me that you will walk again
that in ten years there will be a cure for your shitty disease
I just smile, pat your back, and say "yeah dad, of course"
even though we all know you'll be dead in 5 or less
and even if you are not,
i will have no strength left to carry you
there is no easy way out of this
except death
so, take your time, or don't
I don't know which is better.
<3 I am so sorry you have to
<3
I am so sorry you have to live this my love, hang in there.. if there is one thing I know without question about you, it is that you are stringer than you think you are!
<3
Much Love
Ashley
I Watch Dying Daily
and it is only the beginning. I shall watch myself slowly fade away to pain and confusion and loss of ability to remember. My poetry will become indecipherable and when I forget how to type, I will mentally die, locked inside. Death and dying is a part of living and existing. Like living, dying is hard on the dying and the living. I empathize totally. At 66 I have been fortunate not to have experienced many in the act of dying. I avoid funerals. Too depressing. Just buried my brother two years ago, now my daughter and sister are struggling. I shall pray for you. - Lady A -
I do not want that for you
I do not want that for you and that makes me incredibly sad to think of that. Yet it is unavoidable, that viscous terrible cycle that we are all trying to spin against. I understand. I think of it myself very often. Sometimes I think life can be quite the joke. Death is hard regardless. Whether it's sudden or whether you watch it slowly take over for years. It all hurts the same I'm afraid
"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.