Hold me carelessly to you
and watch me slip away.
It’s too late, time surpassed us.
I’ve faded into grey.
My habit has seeped into
the darkness I consider life.
I grasp limply at the concept.
I’ve bled forth unto your knife.
I can’t describe the senses
that contradict my heart.
I don’t even try at all,
as I slowly break apart.
I hold back all emotion,
let it fester deep inside.
I’m jaded on the surface.
No one knows how much I’ve cried.
My tears are cherished moisture,
diminished in desert sands.
The time within the hourglass
has filtered through my hands.
The time here has grown on me;
the fleeting beauty of this place.
Still I feel as though I’m trapped within
this untouched, polished case.
The nothing I’ve melted into
resides only in my mind.
Trust is what can save me
and it’s trust that I can’t find.
So for the things I should have done
and the words I should have said,
I’ll take solace in the simple fact
you’ll only know me when I’m dead.