Something More

Something More

By Muriel Palanca



I don’t want to be the one that gets left behind. Do you

Know how to find a raven in the dark when it has scratched out your eyes?

That fear of being forgotten and losing the only

Part of you that isn’t dead inside? I want to know all

Of your secrets because everything else seems like lies. Breathe into

Me because I’ve been drowning in a resentful crushing tide.

Is it alright if I let myself fall for you? Am I holding on too tight? What if I lose? Something

Broken is fixable with just a little bit of glue. A lot of little pieces

But also a couple jewels. Many different facets, something precious because of you.

I believe you when you say you love me. I know it’s been a long time coming but I

Hope you understand how hard it is to put a heart in someone else’s hands.

You touch me like the ring of fire around the moon. Though an eclipse

Can turn the day to night, the light’s still breaking through. Do you

See all the beauty dying in the world and coming back anew? Do you see

Me as the poets do when they stare upon a flower? Do you feel me every second of this hour

As I trace your face with my fingers? Weaving tragedies and the whisper of apologies that linger.  

Being this close to you, the rest of the world just falls away. And I know how much we are

Worth. We are a masterpiece and love is never a mistake. I’m trying to find

Something more to talk about but there’s nothing left to say. Everything that words can’t paint is

More than enough to fill this empty page. I’ll burn the bridge to this great divide rather

Than choosing your side or mine. Forgiveness pouring down like rain as we stand together.

The immenseness of eternity, defenseless in uncertainty, we’re staring at this

Damaged line wondering if we’ll make it to forever. Let’s do it again

Because we can make it better this time. Would it scare you if I cried?

When I show you all the things you hate can I be safe in knowing that you’ll love me just the same?

Everything I ever wanted, I always wanted way too much. And anything I try to claim just

Crumbles at my touch. If I find my steady ground and have the strength to let it go

Around a second time, will it come back again or will it be the end of

Me because I didn’t let someone in?

And who is to say that miracles don’t exist?

I know the difference between magic and illusions. When illusions

Can’t be explained or proven then the magic is all there is. I think that you can

Fix me. Make me better than before. Be the canvas that bears my soul and I’ll make

It something more.

The planets all aligned for us and tonight I’m simply yours.

Only you can see straight through me, from my galaxies to wonderlands and caves, to the  

Thing on the other side of the mirror when my reflection gets too hazy. You say I’m crazy yet I’m

Left with the fear of what I might become. But you tell me to be brave. So does that mean there

Is enough change in your pocket to take a chance on faith?

How many pennies can a wish consume before you get tired of its childish game? As

Much as science and numbers say, you’ll never win if you don’t play. Still,

I wonder if happiness can be found in the bottom of a well or if my

Love is enough for

You to stay.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

If it comes out right, there should be a message if you read down the first word of each line.

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This... Is... Simply... Incredible. And the first word of each sentence thing... I seriously got chill bumps reading this. I usually read a few lines and stop and go somewhere else, but this piece captivated me. You are very, very talented. I loved it. Best thing I've read in awhile, perhaps the best poem I have ever read. It spoke to me... Really did. :)
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