Why must I feel the pain,
The pain of never knowing true love
The pain of finally opening up
But getting it thrown back in my face,
Never again shall I try
Never again will I look
For joy, happiness, or even love,
It seems as if my emotions are a toy,
Owned by the youth with the fireworks,
But then again,
Why can’t my problems be destructible like that?
Just blow them up, make them go away,
But they seem much more resilient,
Never wanting to leave me
Growing tumor on my soul
Making my view of the human race
Oh so much more cold,
I’m tired of trying; I’m tired of looking,
I shall sit back and wait
Wait for the one who won’t
Play with my emotions
Bring my heart burning pain
But, would that wait ever end?
Or like everything else I’ve tried in life
It’d only end in vain..
I like this one... and I feel like that alot... but I have decided that I will never find anyone if I dont let myself be put in a place where I may get hurt... because if I protect myself so much that I push them away (like usual) then I will never be happy. It hurts... but at least for a while im not in pain.
~Some Girl