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Available Shoulder
I was lonely
I felt so bad
reminded of the past
seemed like my pain would seem to last
The very first friday
almost time for rest
along came a girl i didnt care for
just like me she was feeling sore
She came to me with a sad face and beutiful eyes
she gave to me her tears
As I held her in my arms she pulled me aside
told me a few things that hurt her inside
Who is this girl?
Why was she so comfortable around me?
Why me, and no one else?
What am I feeling within myself?
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Is this a dream or a memory?
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Or is it showing me a sign?
Telling me inside...
All the things I should abide
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My mind raced because of that day
I stumbled over my words to say
Because I felt something...
A spark perhaps?
Or another slap against my dying heart...
I thought about you the whole weekend
Tia...your name I would say in my sleep
I decided to take that leap
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Is this a dream or a memory?
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Or is it showing me a sign?
Telling me inside...
All the things I should abide
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I needed you...
and I thought you needed me...
this has come to be another memory
that I will always regret
because I got attatched
now ill have more scars to scratch
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Is this a dream or a memory?
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Or is it showing me a sign?
Telling me inside...
All the things I should abide
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I loved being with you
Over the nights id think to myself
"Am I falling in love with you?"
I planned many times to tell you
but I decided to say it on the wrong day
When the whole thing turned gray...
and I felt the urge to fade away
forever....
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Is this a dream or a memory?
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Or is it showing me a sign?
Telling me inside...
All the things I should abide
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I feel like im living like it never happend
but I cant deny myself that very truth
The other girl is gone, I had my chance with her
but failed
But what am I to do about you?
What does all this shit prove?
Life sucks
Love sucks
School blows
Forever my pain grows...
I thought it would pass
It felt like it did
but it was only the wind
passing through the holes in my heart
You come before me again...
you ask that question to me...
"What were you going to tell me?"
I replied...
"I cant tell you anymore...maybe one day..."
I left it at that
so my mind wouldnt frat...
Im so afraid...
afraid of living alone
of being alone
Without anyone to be with my whole life
I might just do what I kept myself from doing...
I will pick up the knife...
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Is this a dream or a memory?
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Or is it showing me a sign?
Telling me inside...
All the things I should abide
But it was telling me to run
Because hurting even more
Is no fun...
~fin~
