Sitting silently
Alone in my room
Tears run down my face
And I close my eyes
And wish I were dead
The scarlet liquid pouring from my wrists
I whisper "Adam"
Ever so softly
"I wish I were dead"
I murmur again
I think of him
And lift the blade
I push it up to my neck
And a sob gets caught in my throat
"I'm so sorry" I scream
And then I push the blade harder
"Forgive me..." I say
And my words trail off
I push the blade harder
And feel the pain
"I still love you" I pant
Then i rip the blade slowly across my throat